Why I didn't write

[eor]

Adam "The Dork" Brodsky wrote a song "Why I Didn't Call". I'm not going to come up with near as many reasons and they won't be nearly as interesting. Why I didn't write is simple. I think of things to write as I'm going through my day: showering, driving, working. I think of just what I'd like to say, usually in a vague way, but sometimes with specific points or phrases. And in my head it's good.

Then when I have time, well, it's like the joke, "If you want a clean house, move in with a procrastinating writer." There is always something more to do.

Then when I finally sit down to write then the real problem is revealed. All those witty bits are gone. What actually comes out is blah and lifeless. It's like what was in my head was Season One of "Chef!" and what comes out is Season 3 of "Chef!" with dementia, in a coma. Most of the time I'm so disgusted I just toss it all. And writing is about habit. If you don't just do it, pretty soon you just can't do it. The demons of anxiety and inadequacy are more than delighted to remind you that you haven't written anything other than utter driven in a dog's age.

So yeah, that's pretty much why I haven't written anything on DW in forever.

Before I wrote this short bit I went to the gym. While writing this short bit I got up to get water and did the dishes. At least a clean house is better for my allergies.

Comments

[derien]

You write so eloquently about not being able to write... *Hugs you tightly!* ;)

I posted something and it was crap, but hey. It's a post. I guess.