emotional support spinning
Nov. 7th, 2025 07:21 am
Happily, there's more of this so I can spin up more for a 2-ply. Destined for weft for the Saori loom - I have promised Joe a smol, semifunctional blanket. :3
A query I put fruitlessly into the ravenous machines that once gave answers
Nov. 6th, 2025 08:37 pmQueer reading is one form of this, but any reading contains some aspect of this push-pull. I think this person said that this is in fact an inevitable part of reading a story, this alternate acceptance and refusal, this shimmering of possibility, such that (famously) you can read a story over and over again and still always hope at a particular point that a character will make a different decision?
(I may have asked this before, because it is an idea that intermittently preoccupies me.)
(Possibly several times, because it might be in my notes from 2023, but who can find those?)
(Now I feel paranoid that I never stop asking this question)
(Also I got double vaccinated today and I am a teeny bit feverish)
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I’m a Lego! And a new It’s Storytime – The Odyssey Problem by Chris Willrich
Nov. 6th, 2025 11:22 pmOh shit. I just hit publish, so the email already went out, and I am not going to send another. I can’t believe I forgot to even mention that Lego revealed a whole lot about the Enterprise D set that drops later this month. Can you believe I forgot this? It’s been such a full and exciting day, this got eclipsed like Darth Cheney finally joining Kissinger at the War Criminal’s table on Tuesday.
I woke up to a flood of text messages from friends who all wanted to make sure I knew about it (I love my friends so much) but my favorite one said “new contact image for you just dropped” with this image attached

I am beside myself. I’m a minifig, you guys! And I am so so so so happy that they chose this version of Wesley, specifically. Way to go, buddy!
Okay, I now turn you over to me from about ten minutes ago:
I should have posted this yesterday. My bad! I’m working all week on a narration that I have wanted permission to do for years. YEARS. Every night I go to sleep super excited to get back to work, and every morning I wake up excited that I get to do this.
That said, it’s been hard work, and I’m exhausted. You’d never believe it was possible to get exhausted, I bet, sitting in a chair and reading all day. And you’d probably be right, if that’s all I was doing. In fact, I wouldn’t have believed it, myself, if I didn’t have firsthand experience. But it’s performance, if you’re doing it right, and performance takes energy. Four straight hours of performance is a lot of performance, it turns out.
To be clear: I love that I’m exhausted. It feels earned and it’s satisfying. It’s also, uh, exhausting. I am entirely out of mana at the end of the day, and I didn’t think reaching into hit points for my blog was the best idea.1
I don’t know when I can get into the details of this — I have such a story to tell about today’s work — but I hope it’s soon.
Oh! This is SUCH a good excuse to put in my subscribe thingy. If you don’t want to miss that post, or any other post, you can do that here:
Nice.
If you follow my Instagram, you may recognize that I’m working in the same booth where I record It’s Storytime with Wil Wheaton. Allow me to use THAT to now fulfill the promise of the blog title, and tell you that a new episode dropped yesterday.
This week’s story is The Odyssey Problem, by Chris Willrich, originally published in Clarkesworld Magazizne. Ohhhh it is so good. I’d love to hear what you think.
It’s Story Time With Wil Wheaton is available wherever you get your podcasts. Subscribe now at
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You can also support the show on Patreon, where you’ll get the show with no ads, as well as some spiffy extras that all the cool kids are into these days.
Oh! Oh! Reminder that Corey, Jerry, and I are coming to a city near you2 with a 35mm print of Stand By Me. Tickets are available for three screenings:
December 5 at Count Basie Center for the Arts in Red Bank, New Jersey
December 4 at Capitol Center for the Arts in Concord, New Hampshire.
December 6 at Lynn Memorial Auditorium in Lynn, Massachusetts.
Everything you need to know, including how to buy tickets and VIP packages is at stand by me live dot com
Hey, hasn’t it great to wake up yesterday and finally have the day you voted for? It feels good, doesn’t it?The beginning of his end is upon us, friends.
Check In: Day 6
Nov. 6th, 2025 05:10 pmHow's writing going? If you didn't write, did you edit? Brainstorm?
Kitty training
Nov. 6th, 2025 10:50 pmI started training Tristana yesterday too (the sessions are about 5 minutes, so it's not really a burden), and she is getting better about touching the target but doesn't fully understand yet.
Saori WX60 floor loom assembly WIP
Nov. 6th, 2025 05:55 am

Loom assembly to continue...after...catten removes herself from possibly having screws DROPPED on her... /o\
Special thanks to Jill of Saori Santa Cruz,
Check In: Day 4
Nov. 5th, 2025 06:28 pmHow's writing going? Doing any editing?
When the Wolf Comes Home, by Nat Cassidy
Nov. 5th, 2025 09:26 am
This book is very hard to describe without spoilers, so I'll just cover the setup. Aspiring actress/current waitress Jess is having a bad night that gets much worse when she finds a scared little boy who's run away from his father. Things get extremely strange from there. This book is a wild ride.
I read it in a single sitting, so it's very propulsive. It's also very dark/bleak, despite some absurdist humor arising from the premise. I enjoyed it a lot while I read it, but it's now months later and it hasn't quite stuck with me the way some other books have. Nestlings is still my favorite of his.
Content notes: Child abuse/harm is central to the story. So is an accidental needle-stick with a possibly contaminated needle.
Spoilers! Also contains some light spoilers for Stephen King's Firestarter.
( Read more... )
Are you fucking kidding me, health center?
Nov. 5th, 2025 04:38 pmI called after lunch today, and the receptionist told me that all the slots had been filled already (even though the slots only opened for booking this morning - I checked their hours - at 8 am) so I would have to call back on November 17th when the next batch of appointment slots (for later in December I guess) opens up, "and preferably as early as possible in the morning!"
This isn't a functional system.
It might be the best way they can manage the resources they have, but it's clearly a health center that doesn't have enough doctors.
This is not an acceptable way to access a doctor's care in a public health system!!!!
(It's because conservative governments have had control in Finland and have been shoving through 'healthcare reforms' and insane cutbacks to all the social services over the last few years.)
An appointment with a private GP at the chain of private health centers with a branch in town has a base price of 100€, but it's 140€ for specialists and I suspect might be more for psychiatrists. (I haven't seriously considered going there, so I didn't check the specifics. Checking how the psychiatric medications are going for me is theoretically a more long-term monitoring anyway, not a one-time visit.)
Check In: Day 3
Nov. 4th, 2025 05:07 pmHow has writing gone today?
I've had it in lattes before but couldn't taste the difference bc lattes are delicious
Nov. 4th, 2025 10:44 pmAnd it's so good! I'm only making cocoa with it right now, but it impressed me right away. I use lactose-free dairy products usually, but I suspect that they disagree with me too, just mildly, especially cocoa made with milk. I've always been too lazy to test that systematically. Eliminating all dairy for an extended period (which I have a few times) isn't rigorous enough because other things can upset my stomach too, including just... anxiety.
I really love lattes - mostly chai and matcha, but I like coffee lattes too - and I've been wanting to make them for years and years. I was originally planning to get a milk steamer as a reward when and if I ever pass the driving test, but currently I'm trying a caffeine-free diet to see if it helps my anxiety. I'm not sure if I will decide to consume it again when the trial is over (I'm doing two and a half months minimum on physician's advice), and there's no point buying one if not.
There's popcorn flavored oat milk at the store. Bewildered and concerned. Don't like that.
October TV shows
Nov. 4th, 2025 09:43 pmI don't think there was a single dud in this collection of shows!
Unfortunately the correct method is still not exactly FAST and also is still stinky...
Nov. 3rd, 2025 05:07 pmA few years ago in the winter when we were using the cast iron woodstove sometimes, someone (me) uhmmmmm absent-mindedly left some candle holders sitting on top of it with candles in them and those included ones carved out of solid blocks of pink rock salt (hideous, they belonged to my MIL, who was addicted to candles. Why didn't we just get rid of them? We hated them. Natural aversion to throwing things away. We have since thrown them out). So it turns out that ummm the candles completely liquefy if you do that and then light a fire in the stove, and they like cause the salt to run and melt onto the surface of the wood stove and salt is bad for cast iron. So. Big rust spots.
And the rust spots have got worse with time, because when it first happened and we tried to get them off, we tried with normal google and duckduckgo searches and got no better advice than sandpaper and steel wool. We only managed to get a tiny bit of the rust off and determined that getting it all off would have taken about 5000 hours of hand-sanding. Since that was not a worthwhile proposition, we left it that way for another year.
So anyway, I tried Marginalia a month ago or something, and it only took a few minutes to unearth a thread about restoring cast iron woodstoves on an old-fashioned bulletin board on "finishing.com, the home of the finishing industry". It's straight out of the internet 20 years ago. And the information was MUCH better!
- WD-40 softens rust
- wire brushes, not sandpaper or sandblasting (although industrial, like, having the stove ripped out and taking it to someone who will sandblast it is the nuclear option if it's completely covered in rust everywhere)
- wire brush attachments for power drills
That was all the info we needed! WD-40 never seemed stinky to me when I was using it on door hinges and stuff, but when you spray it over the visible rust on a wood stove it is noticeable, though not TERRIBLE; it smells kinda like you're in an auto shop, but not in the middle of the car part. Like by the entrance.
You can get visible change on small rust spots with a handheld wire brush. A few hours on two days with the drill attachment has seemed to do the majority of it. It's very hard to work in eye protection goggles and a high filtration mask though. I have to stop, lift the glasses to look, then lower them and start again every minute or so. We are not planning to repaint the spots that have been taken back to the silvery iron, according again to the advice on this bulletin board. Apparently lighting a fire after the WD-40 is already going to be stinky enough and the paint would be worse. You can get protective stove polishes of some kind apparently.
This stove is a Jøtul 3 Classic cast iron woodstove, in a traditional 19th century style. It's completely inappropriate for this 1950 modern-style house. The expected stove in the livingroom is (and no doubt was) a masonry stove, which is much better at heating an area because the ceramic conserves heat and releases it gradually. The form of masonry stoves, which are of course built on-site, was typically streamlined in the years after this house was built. Nowadays you can't build them yourself anymore and that makes them more expensive, so somebody probably replaced the original one when it failed with this cast iron stove perhaps in the 1980s, which was the last time this model was made. But crucially, although a woodstove is completely inappropriate to the house and less functional, there were and are woodstoves that are more minimal and modern in form and they could've just got one of those. But nope.
Anyway, we can't afford a masonry stove like, ever, but our ambition is to replace this woodstove with a Porin Matti, a cheaper alternative to a masonry stove that is still slightly better at retaining heat than a cast iron stove, and which also (a) was in popular use in 1950 and (b) looks similar to the style of masonry stoves typically found in our type of house. These only cost about 2500€ (not counting labor), in contrast to masonry stoves which are typically over 8000€ not counting labor (and requiring much more labor because the mason has to build it on site out of blocks and tiles). We would've been able to buy one this year probably if we hadn't had this broken sewage pipe issue, which ended up costing around 10k. (We had previously earmarked that money, an inheritance from my great-uncle who died recently, for restoring the outer front door and maybe a stove; but the last of it got used on the plumbing instead.)
emotional support fiber
Nov. 2nd, 2025 06:56 pm
I slightly less half-assedly fixed the warp on the Clover Sakiori loom (Japanese).

I didn't bring a comb for the weft and was using a tapestry needle, but catten remains unlikely to mind imperfect weaving.
Also, further adventures in dyeing wool yarn. I'd like to test on dyeing combed top for cotton, ramie, and silk (mulberry/bombyx, eri, tussah, and maybe a small sample of my treasured stash of muga); and then try some on alpaca or mohair after I've processed some more.

Later in the season, in natural dyes, I might experiment with the traditional hoary old standby of onion skins; rose hips (several of my roses shrubs produce them); and find out if windfall figs from the no-longer-quite-so-baby fig tree do anything interested as dyes. Osage orange, common madder, true and false indigo, hibiscus, and elderberry grow in Louisiana so making a dye plant plot might be entertaining. That or I sacrifice e.g. a bunch of beets lol. For personal use, I don't care about consistency (I prefer chaos ball colors) and I'm not that fussed about reliable fastness. "Throw it in a pot and also an ~appropriate mordant" for personal experiment promises to be very entertaining.
Check In: Day 2
Nov. 2nd, 2025 03:14 pmHow has writing gone today? Do you have any particular goals for this month?
In the sounds of then and now, we lose ourselves
Nov. 2nd, 2025 04:55 pmAlthough I don't tend to do much in the way of Halloween, this weekend ended up being one of dust and echoes, haunting and memory, and light and warmth against the turn towards winter almost unintentionally. We didn't get any trick-or-treaters, but I've had candles lit almost constantly since Friday night, and I spent a pleasant half-hour last night watching the fireworks (in advance of 5 November) from the guest bedroom window. This annual event has a whole capitalistic carnival apparatus around it — the hill (usually a public park) from which the fireworks can be viewed is cordoned off, accessible only with a fee, there are fairground-type stalls, and so on. The fact that you have to pay to get in, and that it's cold, always puts me off, and this year I felt more smug than usual at this decision, as it also rained heavily for about an hour before the fireworks began. Far better to watch for free from my warm house!
I've been doing all the normal maintenance activities of the weekend — two hours at classes in the gym yesterday, followed by market lunch, 1km in the pool this morning, coffee and bookshop browsing and a drink in the courtyard garden of the best bar in town today — plus trying to get the garden ready to hibernate over winter. The fact that half the plants are still flowering in November is impeding this somewhat, but I can hardly be annoyed at raised beds still filled with a riot of cornflowers, hollyhocks, nasturtiums, marigolds and dahlias.
In addition to all that, I worked on this year's Yuletide assignment, and made good progress.
Other cool things:
[a] month long reccing event for December. Let's recommend some fanworks! Let's appreciate and comment on those fanworks!
This weekend's (re)reading was deliberately seasonal: the annual The Grey King (Susan Cooper) reread on Friday, and A Lane to the Land of the Dead (Adèle Geras) yesterday. The former remains as exquisite and devastating as ever, the latter was a reminder to me of Geras's versatility as an author: an accomplished collection of ghost stories, set in various parts of Manchester in the mid-1990s (contemporary to the time at which she was writing), with an incredible sense of place. I first visited the city in the 2020s, so never encountered it in the decaying, collapsing, impoverished state that Geras depicts, but she makes it come alive. This after I first encountered Geras as a writer of historical children's fiction, and of YA fairytale retellings set in a British girls' boarding school in the 1960s. Both books, in very different ways, understand haunting not only as the supernatural (although of course this is a strong presence) but also in land, and the built environment, and the memories they retain and transmit, and the bitterness people carry and refuse to let go. I'm glad I chose to read both at the time I did.
emotional support fiber: weaving
Nov. 1st, 2025 05:04 pmI half-assed the warp and it shows, but at the level of "can I set this up at all," the answer is yes. Also, catten is unlikely to be a HARSH critic of a tiny little catten blankie to shed all over, so.



Just look at those warping layouts! I'm too lazy to check the trigonometry, but I'm betting it's correct.
I'm struggling with weaving (English-language [1]) vocabulary so I can't describe the action further. This YouTube playlist by Renee Johnson Studio shows it in action, though.
[1] There is probably random Korean terminology buried in my head because of my mom, but it's not helpful in sussing out help in English...
I need to lie down now but it was a good day for exploratory weaving.
A month of theatre
Nov. 1st, 2025 09:39 pm( Eddie Izzard's Hamlet )
( The Importance of Being Earnest )
( Hamilton )
( Born With Teeth )
( The Producers )
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