writing

I've gotten out of the habit of writing.  It's never been natural for me and as I've gotten older I've got more self-conscious about having nothing interesting to write about or being unable to express anything I do have to write about.  It's a self reinforcing line of thought, pretty soon the people you might write to are so out of touch with your life, it's hard to make a connection.  When I can actually get something written it makes me happy.  But it is very rare that I can sit down and get around my apprehension.  It probably doesn't help that I don't have much time to sit down at all these days, but it's not just lack of time.  And it's not just depression.  And it's not just feelings of inadequacy.  It's all of them and some more stuff thrown in.

So I'm going to try to write some mundane things, when I have a few minutes to try to retrain myself. 

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