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eorI've gotten out of the habit of writing. It's never been natural for me and as I've gotten older I've got more self-conscious about having nothing interesting to write about or being unable to express anything I do have to write about. It's a self reinforcing line of thought, pretty soon the people you might write to are so out of touch with your life, it's hard to make a connection. When I can actually get something written it makes me happy. But it is very rare that I can sit down and get around my apprehension. It probably doesn't help that I don't have much time to sit down at all these days, but it's not just lack of time. And it's not just depression. And it's not just feelings of inadequacy. It's all of them and some more stuff thrown in.
So I'm going to try to write some mundane things, when I have a few minutes to try to retrain myself.
Tonight I do have a few minutes because it rained today and forced me indoors early. I started the day splitting wood, then followed that up with bucking more wood (cutting logs to stove length), and chipping a lot brush and leaves until it started to rain in earnest.
This is all because one of our trees split about 15 feet up and one of the sides of the split fell into another tree a few weeks ago. I spent most of the evenings this week getting the pieces that were hung up down to the ground. Half fallen trees are colloquially known as widowmakers. I'm stupid enough to take them on, but I do so slowly and carefully.
This was a double because it was still attached to the trunk at one end and hung up in another tree at the other end. To get it down required standing on a ladder sawing the attached bit with a hand saw. I will not use a chainsaw on a ladder, that's just a short path to a Darwin Award.
Once one end was on the ground, the trick was to drag that along the ground until the other end dropped out of the other trees. I broke my good hemp rope in 4 pieces. But the tow strap I had for the van and a come-along proved strong enough to drag 1,000+ pounds of wood and leaves out of the other trees.
So I'm going to try to write some mundane things, when I have a few minutes to try to retrain myself.
Tonight I do have a few minutes because it rained today and forced me indoors early. I started the day splitting wood, then followed that up with bucking more wood (cutting logs to stove length), and chipping a lot brush and leaves until it started to rain in earnest.
This is all because one of our trees split about 15 feet up and one of the sides of the split fell into another tree a few weeks ago. I spent most of the evenings this week getting the pieces that were hung up down to the ground. Half fallen trees are colloquially known as widowmakers. I'm stupid enough to take them on, but I do so slowly and carefully.
This was a double because it was still attached to the trunk at one end and hung up in another tree at the other end. To get it down required standing on a ladder sawing the attached bit with a hand saw. I will not use a chainsaw on a ladder, that's just a short path to a Darwin Award.
Once one end was on the ground, the trick was to drag that along the ground until the other end dropped out of the other trees. I broke my good hemp rope in 4 pieces. But the tow strap I had for the van and a come-along proved strong enough to drag 1,000+ pounds of wood and leaves out of the other trees.
